Tin Foil Roses: 
Making the best out of nothing under 
the guidance of my Heavenly Father.

I know that I really don't have any readers, at least none that I know of, but I still do not blog as much as I'd like to.  Lately, I've been doing a lot of plannig.   Planning for spring cleaning.  Homeschool planning.  Diet planning.  Plan. Planning. BLAH!!!   I'm doing so much planning, that I'm sorry to admit that I'm not really doing anything else.  

It kind of makes me start to cry just thinking about it all...where has all my energy gone???  My willpower?  My drive??  Where is it all at?  I'd say how much weight I've put on, but it's a utter embarassment.  With all my health problems I've encountered over the past year or so...well...I just never thought that this would be me.  You know?  I never once thought that I'd be so heavy that every movement of every day would become a struggle...Sometimes a painful struggle at that.  And I feel so bad for my children.  They're suffering a lot from my lack of will power to lose weight.

But that's about to change.  MARCH 1ST IS THE BIG DAY.  The day that I'm finally going to commit to living right, and ditch this food addiction.  Yes, addiction.  I'm never hungry when I eat.  And I don't really eat emotionally either.  I eat just to eat...and I'M DONE WITH THAT!!!  I've kicked many addictions over the past 2 years, and I will not be satisfied until I've kicked this one, too.  

So, next Monday is the day.  The day is set and I'm sticking to it.  

What have I found, you ask? That's easy...I  have finally found the curriculumn that Riley will be using to finish out his school year.  

The beginning of the school year progressed so slowly the I became determined to find the best method for the kids even if I had to make it up myself.  Well, I didn't have to make it up myself...at least not entirely.  After a very long...very long...hiatus, we will be finishing the first grade using the Charlotte Mason Method, with my own little twist on it.  I have spent the day reading some of the books that she has written, and my mind is fluttering around with ideas and inspiration.  

Many, many prayers were put into this decision, that's for sure, as I felt completely lost in a plethora of curriculum choices, books, supplements and just the fact that I did, eventually, manage to sort them all out and choose what I feel the God feels will be best in the long run for my children's education...well, I'm excited, and eager, to say the least.  

I think that the Charlotte Mason method, with my own little twist, of course, will be the perfect combination between the traditional method that did too much with little retention, and the unschooling method, which, well, just didn't work for us.  I know that children have a natural curiosity and desire to learn, but it's too stressful for me.  I don't like my parents asking Riley ''What did you work on today?''  and his answer being ''Nothing''.  That's what I really feel like he's been doing in the past couple months of ''unschooling''...nothing.  I'm not one for TONS of structure, but I'd at least like to feel a little more productive than ''nothing''.

So, we're going to try this route.  I have a good feeling about this one.  Really, I do.  I feel that I spent a lot of time trying to figure out the answer to our educational distress by myself and never gave God a chance to chime in.  I really feel like He's been attempting to call me towards this direction for quite sometime, but I keep insisting to myself that this couldn't possibly be the right path for Riley because he HATES books and schoolwork and the such.  

But, then again, maybe God is just trying to tell me that to get him to love books, I need to surround him with them...and to get him to love the Lord, I need to surround him with him...and what better way to do that then with books and nature?  

''Grandchildren are the crown of the aged...'' Proverbs 17:6a

Being only 24 years old, this verse has never really struck much of a chord with me as I am far from thinking about being a grandparent.  I mean, how many of us have actually thought about being a grandparent before we really are one

Yesterday, while shopping at the mall, we took the children to the playcenter that a local hospital has built for young children to play on.  It's a favorite spot of my children, but never have I really paid much attention to the other people that are around the area until yesterday.  After being there for about ten minutes I noticed an old man, walking around with a cane, looking half lost in one aspect and completely found in another.  After a bit I was starting to get worried that he couldn't find hsi wife or caretaker or whomever he came with...or worse, worried that maybe he had Alzheimers and wondered here, now not knowing how to get back to where he was supposed to be.  

Then, after Joaquin sat down in total exhaustion from playing with the children, the old man arose and started wondering, eventually making his way to where we were sitting where he proudly exclaimed, 'I knew you'd get tired before they did.'' He'd spent that entire time watching us as if he'd known us forever.  Five minutes later he had wondered on into a department store.

This man really made me think.  I have no idea what his circumstances truly are, however, I imagined he's a very lonely man, just wanting some companionship and maybe a kid to climb up into his lap and read a good book or watch re-runs of Andy Griffith or something.  I prayed for him there in the playcenter, and will continue to pray for him for quite some time, as he has drastically touched my heart in so many ways.

Where was his grandchildren?  Did he even have any?  Could he possibly have grandchildren that just aren't around for one reason or another, or did he even take the time to raise a family during his younger years? Did The Lord even bless him with the ability to have children? What was this man's story? I was yearning to know.

Now, I'm left with all these questions, and they have made me think so much about my own life.  God gives us children as a blessing..they are his GIFT.  And I love that this man's story, whatever it may be, has made me realize that, more than I already know.  One of the blessings that come from the children that God gives us is that there are always little companions around.  And God gives us the means and ways to keep a close knit family, so that maybe, just maybe, I will have my grandchildren in my life so that I'm not a lonely woman longing to have those youthful companions.  Longing for them so much that it makes one's heart happy just to sit and watch stranger's children happily playing in a mall.  I feel blessed that I'm never alone.  That I have God, and my family to keep me company all the days of my life.  For that, I am thankful.  And that, is the lesson that the old man at the mall taught me.
Well, so far I'm off to a good start in this brand new year. My body is slowly getting back to normal and the possibility of another pregnancy doesn't look so impossible anymore.  This has been quite a stress reliever and now I have finally found contentment in my conviction of allowing God to choose the right size family for me.  I threw myself into such a depression at the thought of not being able to have anymore children and now that is all gone. Yay.

Another blessing bestowed upon me so far this year is that the wonderful Lord has  stood by my side financially and now I have found the means to get the books and school supplies that my children so desperately need for their schoolwork.  Praise God. He never fails to pull through for me and my family.

Proverbs 3:5-6 ''Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own  understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." 
Well, it's been a little while since writing.  Turns out that my winter cold wasn't even a cold at all.  It was a very severe case of pneumonia.  Blech.  I'm finally showing signs of life again, and the cough is beginning to subside, but I've still got a little ways left in terms of recovery.

Well, today is the anxiously awaited for Christmas Eve.  The presents are wrapped.  The groceries are bought. And the kids are about ready to squirm out of their skin with excitement.  Ahh...the Holidays.  I'm thinking we're going to bake some cookies tonight.  Since I actually have already wrapped all the presents for once. :) That's a first for me!  I'm usually the one wrapping presents until 2am Christmas morning!  But this time, they're finished, and I may just fill my home with the wonderful smell of baked goodies.  

Well, time to pick up a bit around here and get ready for my company tomorrow.  God Bless you all as you celebrate the birth of our wonderful redeemer!
Merry CHRISTmas!
A Winter Cold... 12/12/2009
Well, today I just feel drained.  I have the worst cough I've had in my life.  Yep, just a cough.  Only, it's more like this giant three day long cough attack. I can't even talk because it makes me cough.  It feels as if someone is stabbing me in the head and chest ever time I cough now because the muscles are so strained.  I'm praying that my children don't get this, because this is miserable.

"If God brings you to it; God will bring you through it!"     Frank Jordan

First post! 12/09/2009
Well, after many blogging attempts, I think that I've found a place that works for me.  So, check back every now and again as I share life's trials and joys, recipes and the Lord's word.  And whatever else happens to be on my mind at that time.

God Bless,


    I am a homeschooling, SAHM of 3 gifts from God, a helpmeet to the most wonderful man in the world, and daycare provider to 4 vibrant children. I ♥ MY LIFE!


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